That day, when everyone went to bed, I made preparations. I did ablution, prayed Isha prayers, turned off the lights, and started praying. I prayed, "O Allah, I want a heart that without doubt or suspicion. This Hodja I listened to talked about reaching Allah, I want to reach Allah, I want to reach you." I cried on the prayer rug. Prayers led to prayers, and then I started shivering. It was very cold, was it the cold that was making me shiver? No, something else was making me shiver. I was a little scared, I ran to the bed and pulled the covers over my head, but I was full of peace.

When I woke up in the morning, a miracle happened. I'm still crying as I'm writing this. I opened my eyes to the most magnificent and marvelous morning of my life. I said, " O Allah, I'm so happy!" I jumped out of bed and looked out the window. It was as if the mountains, the trees, the sky were talking to me. I saw them more beautiful than I had ever seen them before, and I was flying. I wished, I wished! I wished to reach Allah! It was true, I'm so happy! I can't believe it, O Allah, thank God! There was such a wish, it changed everything.

When I started to recite the Fatiha, a cry broke out in me. I performed the salat for hours, weeping and crying. It was as if each verse was breaking from within me, gushing out of me in a way I had never realized before. Reverence was all around me. All the fighting inside me was over and peace and calmness enveloped me. It was as if I was reborn. The same house, the same world, but I was not the same, I was a completely different person.

The architect of my life, my religious guide who guided me to my life's purpose, showed me the way, taught me the truth. The blessed person who pulled me out of the pits of unhappiness with a wish. Whatever is beautiful in my life is all His work. He taught us everything. I owe everything to Him: faith, love, Allah, behavior, being a servant, being a friend, the soul, the spirit, everything about beauty. Before Him, my life was meaningless and purposeless, like an empty sack. Now we have a goal. To live for Allah, to be worthy of Him and a life dedicated to Him. I praise and thank Allah so much.